A Forever Good Night

Episode 10

A forever good night

There will be always a sweet good night from a friend, perhaps he is a special friend. He is being good to me, listening to me, and understanding me for almost 3 years, of course I stupidly know that, it is not that easy. He has wants from me, yes, he is loving me and I know, he is silently wanting me to love him as well.

Well, humanly speaking, I cannot say that feeling is not attaché, but to describe it well, he is the most good candidate as a husband, he is good, working hard, listener, and who will definitely love you, treat you good for the rest of your life.

So, are you going to marry him?

I am not that naïve, and stop being that naïve, is he going to wait for you? Oh, there other way of speaking, are you expecting him to wait for you? Or okay, other way of speaking, do you want him to wait for you?

Huh? Seems confusing, that’s what happening to me now, and let’s say, do you want a happy married life? Of course, okay, come to the most basic question ever, are you planning and preparing yourself to get into marriage? Er, I am not sure, that’s the point. I don’t even think I can or I will get married.

So, what do you enjoy honey?

I enjoy the process before in love,… because before you fall there is some kind of sweet interlude, and I love the interlude. How it treats me and magically it shakes my emotion.

Because by falling, you will hurt, that’s why it is called fall in love, if you don’t want to get hurt, don’t play with it. If you are planning to fall in love, and then, obviously you are also planning to get hurt as well, that’s the point.

So far, how do you think? What are you thinking of?

Are you saying that- you are scared for being in love because you know that you will definitely hurt?

Now listening to marriage de amour, from Richard Clayderman, a sad melancholy music sheets, I am going to play it.