THE MATADOR

Episode 22

 Welcome to Spain!

Listen to the beat, the voice of step of the dance, and wait! The matador, yes... The braveness and how they treat the angry ox with their calming killing acts 

Often, things happen so sudden we don't even have enough time to settle it, and suddenly we  feels like the most stupid and dumb person in the world. We even so confused on our aim, what shall we do? An many other how why and whom? Actually that's the problem of life, don't think too much. 

Do things that make you happy and smile 

And well,?if you're really hasitating what are you going to do for the rest of your time, then just do nothing, to push your self too much, because it only drive you crazy to your unwanted life. 

Cheers, 

Be happy

Enjoying my Danish with raisin and oh ya

A up of Darjeeling! Happy day

MY BEAUTIFUL EX

Episode 21:

When you say, you want her to be happy,

You do the prayer

The chant

All about her,

Wish her luck, wish her happiness

You seems to take me as your buddy,…

A friend, but why am I so hurt, when all things you do is about her

All the things you discussed is about her

Sometime, I think she is so lucky…

I am envy…

And I’m happy to make you happy

But, why am I hurt?

I wish I could do it without participating my feeling

I hope that feeling lost long time ago, died

But, it grow now…

What shall I do?

When you prayer for her,

I do prayer for you

I never tell you, because I am..

Not willing to make you dilemma

I, don’t want to be your dilemma,

I want to be your happiness

I want you to be happy

As your guarding angel, listening to you

And always borrow you my shoulder…

Whenever you need it,

My beautiful ex…

Now playing, jay chow ming ming jiu,… followed by jason mraz when I was your man.

PARANOID

Episode 20

Papa say :

“Don’t step on two boats at once,

Because when both go, you are the one who fall.”

This girl is lucky, she has an innocent face, people love her, she is well socialized, she is pretty much interesting and stunning. Though a little bit fat,

She is in a long distance relationship, not very long actually, but she is been going steady with a guy for almost 8 month, and for her, it is doesn’t seems interesting. Because, of the long distance, okay it might be an excuse for some people, but yes it is in some point.

Then, she finally met a man, a thirtieth man, not very far away, and they go steady without any planning, well of course that guy do not seems to know the truth, but this girl also do not seems to very fond of this guy,

What is she doing?

She is scared, I think she is paranoid of the status, and yes she is.

Since she is writing this, on her own, she do not even know how to explain. 

THE TOPAZ

Episode 19

the winds blow slowly and it touch my skin, yes... i can feel it, how the wind touch my skin,... the blue calming topaz sea surrounds me, i am on the  boat of happiness, the boat has bring me to the middle of the sea the sources of happiness. it is fun and a little bit of scaring.

~

The road is a narrow, the greens, not. not the greens for me of course it is the greens for those animal and preys, they are the king they are the owner of this places, i am just a cross by human, i am just the stranger here.

I hereby to enjoy the scenery of the other world, the world which is far, far away from crowd, nobody knows me, the things that they see, is me... the simply me without any secret. of course,...

here once more, i can see how the birds sing, i... humph, i wish i also can sing with them! they brings love song and the song of joy!

how beau, it is one of my unforgettable journey...

METRO SOCIETY

Episode 18

Okay, let’s see, this is what has been happening in a metropolitan society,

One of my sister, of course not a blood related sister, she is even nicer and nearer. Okay, she FALL in love with a guy, from our neighborhood country which is Singapore.

Further then, how do they stay connected anyway? Well, she has been uploading facebook picture anytime, go online, and stay on her smart phone, currently is Samsung Galaxy. Er, whenever and wherever.

Well, that’s not the main reason I am complaining here, for her soft and killing way of loving, and flirting with that guy, the problem is I found problem with that guy, he is just way to perfect, too perfect as a boy, and too, a playboy.

“yeah, you may talk to me,

make me laugh and say the sweetest things.

But how many other girls are you doing that to?”

I think that super perfect sweet boy is having an affair, okay, that not called an affair, there are not yet married… supposed to be called “another close friend”, how do I know? Because “nothing is perfect” I used to see things from different way, I know how do people act when they do typical things, and here is it, I am demanding my friend, to better check on his facebook, that fvcking society website, at the beginning my friend rejected to do that, because that’s his privacy, and I say “and what if, his privacy, hurt you?”

Here thing goes, than my friend go to Singapore and finally catch the chance to spy her boyfriend’s laptop, and as what I guess for, he is just way too perfect, to be a good boy.

Yes, he is being dishonest to my friend, he is having another girl outside,…

And how does my friend feel? What did she told me?

“my bf never go outside, he is always staying home and the camp”

“whenever he go out, he will inform me first”

“wherever he were, he will told me”

“he only goes with his gaming friend, I don’t really mind either”

“on Saturday usually he always goes with his parent, no time for another girl”

That’s the real fvcking woman in love! She (myfriend) believe so much in that bastard! And see what?

My friend cries, and she is denying everything…included her own feeling.

FREEZE

Episode 17

Kamu suka makan eskrim? Aku suka banget :-)

Pernah merasakan sedikit ngilu di kepala pada saat makan es krim?

Sometime, I really thank you for the innovator of ice cream, I owe her/he a lot, because every time I felt sad, I am looking for ice cream, at least it can make me feel better it feels like it can almost freeze my brain and my heart, so that I don’t think too much and felt too hurt.

Remember, in the book of Ajahn Bram he said that when problems come and you don’t know what to do… so, just do nothing.

Hakuna matata!

LOST IN LOVE

Episode 16

Oops I did it again, I play with you heart and got ‘lock’ in the game…

Her stilettos are knocking the floor, she comes in to the hotel where I work in, she is wearing a smoothie dove dress, quite lovely and elegant.

She speaks well, she seems to be very socialized person, she loves to communicate and very expressive, well, compared to people here!

She is a girl, which I don’t know… yet, she don’t know me too…

30 minutes after check in, she ring me and asked to reserve a taxi for her, it is already 10 pm, quite late for a woman to go out, 15 min later she comes out from her room near the corridor, she is thousand faces lady, incognito magnificent…

Look at her, no more elegancy, no more high class office style dove dark dress, she is now a cute little sweet girl, wearing a pink t shirt with a white pants, white sneaker keds shoes, with a buoyant touch of blush on, she walk away and got in to the taxi…

Not too long, she takes about an hour, seems like she is having her dinner outside, and not long after she comes out again, but not looking for taxi, she asked me whether can I called the waiter to tidy up table and pew on the pool side, of course my lady.

Soon, to guys come in, and go directly to the pool, they seems to be having quite fun topic and they laugh loudly, well.. another her… not caring about her image and laughing and laughing without comas and juncture.

They day after,  she woke up early in the morning before I left the hotel and left my shift, my Christmas eve shift, I saw her, swimming on the floor with a bluish tank top and short black pants, she is a quite good swimmer, flowing left and right in an amazing charm.

Well, I went home and I heard from a woman from a morning shift, she said they seems like she is using double name, somehow to lie someone, because couple hours before she left to the airport, there is a man, waiting for her, with his eyes red and watering, well… tears,…

And that man call that lady,…

FAITH

Episode 15

有缘千里来相会，无缘过桥不相识

Yǒuyuán qiānlǐ lái xiāng huì, wúyuánguò qiáo bù xiāngshí

If you own destiny, thousand miles you might meet him,

 if you don’t have destiny you don’t even know him if you are crossing the same bridge.

Do you believe in faith? If you don’t, please believe that everything happens for a reasons, why do I write? Why do you I share? why do we meet? Why do you read my page?

Yes, that’s what called faith, you read because I post, I post because I want someone to share with me, to know how I feel, to read and enjoy my naughty imagination.

I am here for a reason, as a daughter of my parents, as a sister for my brothers, as a teacher for several students, as a secretary for my boss, as a friend for my friend, as enemies for the who think I am,…

So, why do you cry for your lost? You should be grateful… don’t worry to much, He has a better plan, behind all this, because everything happens for a reason.

Listening to crystal flower from the Original Sound Track of Disney…